Sometimes situations are not fair. People are damaged and they do not make sense. As much as you can love the light in someone if they are obscured by their personal darkness they will cloak you within it too. My ex-bf (the junkie) once told me that I should get over my heartbreak because the […]

Venus is in retrograde. Yes, I am back and more fragile than ever. Excellent for you! Where was I? In crisis and also complacent. Must I be in love? Long story. Jury’s out. You know me, tortured by heartbreak is my primary motivator to writing. And we’re back! I missed you too. Venus is the […]

Playing with the Rubik’s cube that is my psyche I have developed an obsessive taste for pop science/psych books. All encompassing: from books on dreams written in the 90’s to emotional intelligence to current best selling self help to sacred feminine to science and atheism to biology and humanism. True confession- I even went to […]

My honesty is relative to the amount of audience that I think I have. Little to none. Apart from spam. Yet here I am. Still talking. Never fear Mon petit reader, you are still saved from the official duty of my diary. If you think I am all out and over-share, trust me there are […]

Hi internet! How are you? Long time no over-share. As if I needed less agency and to escape the responsibility and consequences of my choices. What is fate? Today, I went to visit my regular psychic. Regular as in this is my third visit with this particular medium. On one of those trips she suggested […]

I used to be kinda funny. Apologies for the gruelling mental heart to hearts. It got way too ‘feels’ on here. Your girl only lives in the extremes. Hi! Happy birthday to my twin flame Do not groan. I am fucking psychic and will cite examples later. Chill bro. What is a twin flame? I […]

I was at dinner with the friends of my friend and this guy says to me “so what do you do?” I reply “I’m a receptionist” and he says to me “I hear you’re a writer”. I didn’t say it at the time but what I wanted to say was, yeah I used to be. […]

Then I realised you were dead. A year later and I’m searching through the ‘Non- Denominational’ section of the cemetery, wedged between the bountiful crops of Catholics who have obediently gone forth and multiplied, the system they use to mark the graves is inefficient and it is the worst treasure hunt I have gone on. […]

Yo. In my absence I have been indulging my own thoughts- not learning much that I already don’t preach about, it is torture. I don’t know why I’ve stopped speaking here. Nightmares are improving- this is a minor gain. There has to be something larger than coincidence at play. I am approaching my dead friend’s […]

Being good at love is a decision. Sometimes I think that a higher power is trying to talk to me via the Internet. Or maybe Google is the new God. After my social media cleanse I am back to dabbling and it is a waste of my fucking time. Facebook trying to tell me that […]