I finished the book the nun gave me and now I’m more confused. The religion must be working its hocus-pocus. One thing I’m compelled to is the notion of silence. I obsessively google things. I love it. Any question on my mind I Google. Fun example- ‘why is my ex bf talking to me’. Best […]

Torrential, tropical, rain turned out to be a typhoon. I’m fine. If I’m not being threatened by religious idealism, my own mental decline or mediocre beauty practice it’s got to be natural disaster. We’re only getting the tail end of the typhoon but I’ve been rained in for three days now, going crazy. Editor’s note: […]

Yesterday, I was sent to a convent for my bad attitude. The Carmelite nuns are a contemplative cloister situated by the sea. The grounds are lush and gated and there are six armed military soldiers playing cards and smoking in small gazebo by the front gate. The nun is nice. I don’t think you’re allowed […]

Blog lesson 508- don’t put off writing ever. I didn’t recount my grandmother’s birthday as promised. Sorry. Now, it just seems like a redundant event left behind in my memory. Dramatic. If I can lose enthusiasm for retelling a story in nine days what does that say about my ability to remain enthused by people… […]

I am being relentlessly pursued by this old man with idealistic dreams. And for once I am grateful that sentence is not about love. It is about partnership, I’m not really sure how the idea fell together. Old mate is a mathematician (physicist) on the brink of retirement, he wishes to teach high school students’ […]

What am I going to talk about today? I got one thing on my mind and it’s love. My favourite topic. You probably never met a girl so bad at it. Yesterday was actually bad. I wrote til the sun went down and all I could produce was something below mediocre. For those of you […]

I have been sitting here for four hours trying to write something. If you think scratching a mosquito bite is satisfying, try writing something then using the delete key to erase it. Shit is cathartic. But also I a little bit want to kill myself. I wrote a post about north nodes (astrology- silent eye […]

October is the month the city celebrates Fiesta Pilar. Cue wiki (again) the festival is held in honour of the miraculous image of Our Lady of Pilar. Patron saint to the city. For those with no religious reference. It’s the Virgin Mary (Jesus’ mother, come on, I know you guys know that one) but specific […]

It was some relative’s birthday and we couldn’t go so they sent us food. Typical. I talk about Filipino noodles a lot. It’s a traditional dish called pancit or pansit made from bean vermicelli noodles (note not rice vermicelli- these aren’t shiny) with chicken, pork and vegetables. The noodles have this translucent quality. They positively […]

In March this year I went to my first funeral for someone close to me. My friend was 31 when he died. He and my dad share a birthday and a lot of similar traits. Magnetic, stormy, contemplative, funny, troubled. I don’t want to talk about my father. Watch the room go silent cause he […]