It was some relative’s birthday and we couldn’t go so they sent us food. Typical. I talk about Filipino noodles a lot. It’s a traditional dish called pancit or pansit made from bean vermicelli noodles (note not rice vermicelli- these aren’t shiny) with chicken, pork and vegetables. The noodles have this translucent quality. They positively […]

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In March this year I went to my first funeral for someone close to me. My friend was 31 when he died. He and my dad share a birthday and a lot of similar traits. Magnetic, stormy, contemplative, funny, troubled. I don’t want to talk about my father. Watch the room go silent cause he […]

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Hello dear readership, I am still recovering from the weekend. Penning anything terribly insightful is beyond my capacity right now. It was a full house. My grandmother, my uncle and his wife plus their 3 grown up kids plus my mother and I. Lucky our dining table sits eight. Is being psychic a genetic trait? […]

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So I’m back to being crazy. The crazy where you’re locked in your own head. Regular crazy like if I think about it long enough I’m going to find a solution. Nah bro nah. It’s a full house at the moment so there’s not enough time to really sit and write long ass stories about […]

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Yesterday was my grandmother’s birthday party- full recap to come. This is my favourite part of any celebration. The day after. It’s when it feels the most like family being together. I am surrounded by a not so modest amount of left over food- there were a total of six cakes last night. Gifting cake […]

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I am a perfectionist. It’s a trait of my star sign. Yep, I’m also a horoscope girl. Of course you’re not surprised. I tell you constantly that I’m psychic. This is weird addressing you directly. Does it feel like I’m talking to you personally? I’m starting to have fun with writing, life is still a […]

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Friday is my Grandmother’s birthday party. She is turning 85. It got postponed because my cousin died. She is not inconvenienced. She’s too regal. But you still don’t throw the ultimo and a birthday on the same day. The ultimo is the last day of the 9-day prayer vigil; it’s what western people would officially […]

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Continuing along with the idea of communication and social media blackout I’m going to pen some thoughts on friendship. I feel really shit. My mother, the nurse, took my blood pressure. It’s low. I’m fine. But I think I’m basically too relaxed. Or I’ve been thrown to the opposite end of the heart beat spectrum. […]

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I am not afraid to be crazy. I think it is what makes me sane. Sometimes I think that I’m being over sympathetic to myself. There is an expression here that translates to “don’t favour your disease”. If you’re sick you must persevere. You can’t baby illness. It’s in your head. It’s the opposite of […]

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Last night there was a power blackout and I was glad. Part of this mental health experiment was removing myself from this constructed view of other people’s lives. I don’t know why social media makes me anxious. It makes me anxious in the same way as my former benzo addiction. It’s something that I know […]

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